EVERYDAY I'M STUDYING

TODAY, first time night studying since the night study programme started...

quite fruitful!

i guess?

anyway, i'll be busy studying for A Levels so pray for me!

if not, wish me luck :)

Banner at concourse writes..... 106 DAYS TO A LEVELS.

& we have yet finished the syllabus..... gg :(

post holiday syndrome

i've gotten all my results!

i'm kinda disappointed............but oh well!

must thank God that i improved for 3 of my subjects based on CT results :D

my chem did badly though...looooooooooool.

alot of peepo getting U ._.

paper hard la. hor?

A Levels are getting closer and closerrrr.

just can't wait to get it over and done with but... i want to have more time to study...

矛盾矛盾矛盾～

was talking with vanessa today, AND WE WANNA GO 私奔!

HEHEHHEHEEE. who wants to join us?

just fb inbox me or something ;)

we are gonna go after Alevels though.

must be responsible abitttt ah. finish that, rob some bank, get the money, write a byebyeigo私奔awhilenote, go on a plane and fly somewhere~

Go there work, meet nice people and make new friends!

yay, i can almost taste the freedom :B

kannot wait!!!!!

btw, i'm in post holiday syndrome.

Still feel like wasting my time &not yet prepared to study like siao.... :/

unexpected awkward moment &random insight

title explains it all!

HAHA.

#awkwardmoment when you try to make real compliment sound not so formal and more joke-ish but you really meant it as a compliment, AND, the receiving party does not get it.

#omgsoawkward that you have to explain it.

HAHA, but it cheered me up.

makes life a lil' more interesting somehow.

especially when it's 3.50am and nothing much is happening.

do you know our brain is much more active at night?

yeah!

exams should totally be held at night!!!!

in fact, we should all have like working ours of 1pm-1am!

keeeeedingz

yeah that explains why so much thoughts (and random song lyrics) always stuck in my head at night.

sometimes very annoying.

and at times like this when you've got time to waste, it's.... erm, interesting?

well but there are also those emoemo emo-ish times.

that one......not cool.

AND on this particular night, or should i say morning?

i'd be thinking about life.

life as a whole.

yup.

(and also that da j gave me christin's bb primer tee for free teehee)

and you know, sometimes......you feel that LIFE JUST SUCKS.

hey, welcome to the modern world that most people have eventually shaped into.

bad guys become badder. good guys become....bad?

yeah, and we just have to suck it up man.

as in, there are people worse off than i am.

and everytime i think of that i'd be like 'why the heck am i like complaining again???'

ikr, i think it's our inate nature to complain and just want the best.

but you know what?

the best is in the making.

the best is yet to be.

God has a plan and a purpose and He knows what's best for us. (heard many times right?)

and eventhough things may just seem so sucky right now, it may not be in the future.

IF if if if ifffff IF we follow His direction.

that itself is not enough.

WE NEED TO BE RESPONSIBLE for what we want.

if we want our lives to be for the better, we CHANGE, we trust in God.

we fast, we pray, we do whatever it takes.

ultimately, it is our desire for what we want for the rest of our lives that actually drives us.

(yes this is what i learnt from sermon today)

no, not that life sucks blah blah part, that was made up by me.

ANYWAY,

i wasn't always i christian ;)

in fact, i used to be anti-christ.

hahaha! cannot believe right! i loved to debate with Josephine whenever she starts talking about God and whatever thing.

well, and i am someone who fights for what i believe in.

i used to believe in err the buddhism/taoism thingy and read the simple cheeeena books about buddha etc. and even wear the string thing you get from a temple.

but then things changed when i went to church.

i started to EXPEREIENCE God. &i just couldn't fathom it.

i just.....changed.

& voila!

you have the now me who is a non vulgar person. who is trying hard to be selfless, non judgmental, friendly, outspoken, humble.... etc.

i am human afterall.

and sometimes i fail.

sometimes i fail damn badly.

and i get up and learn from my mistakes!

and every single day, i fight the good fight.

every single day, i know i will be accountable for my actions.

and so...................................i am careful.

but there's always that few times you slip up.

but do you continue on the floor? mope-ing &whining? or do you pick yourself up, grow stronger than ever, &fight for what made you Believe in the first place?

ps: i typed this under sleepy conditions.

i forsee myself sounding weird.

goooooodnight:)

OMGOSH TIRING DAY TODAY cause i had to wake up at 5.50am...

to travel down to Kovan for DI refresher course (gb stuff)

BUT CHURCH WAS AWESOME TODAY.

IT WAS BEYOND AWESOME AND I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING.

God's presence was so so so so so overwhelming and tangible.

it was like, YI camp 08 all over again o_o

hahahahhaa.

anyway!

to de-stress abit, i'm gonna watch a movie tonight! Beastly :D

and maybe another movie tmr night. hahahahaha.

JESUS LOVES YOU AND SO DO I :D