I was a little enlightened

http://www.moisom.com/faith/i-just-got-engaged-and-immediately-doubted-my-decision-heres-why-i-still-said-yes/#.VE5EqKoazCQ

Ahhhhhh

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like I understand myself like 90/100.
Other times I feel like I don't understand myself at all.

Sometimes I feel like I know everything.
Sometimes I feel like I don't know at all.

Sometimes
Times like today...

I feel like
playing iPhone/Macbook app games all day :3


Happy Monday : D

I am getting old

Growing up doesn't seem as appealing as it did 10 years ago. I've learned - the hard way - that growing up also means death catching up with you. 

Just found out that one of my uncle in Penang passed away this evening. Even though i'm not close to him but you know CNY is just going to be slightly different with one less uncle asking you "How old are you? Where are you studying?" commenting "Wow you're so tall." all in Chinese with a Malaysian accent. 

Gone are the days where I could "boast" that I've never been to a funeral before and have no idea how it goes like. 

Sometimes in certain situations there is a need for one to act differently. One may be in terms of giving: stepping out of your comfort zone, giving your time, acts, attention to others. Other times you have to take: you withhold what you truly intend to do, you hold back on your actions, your thoughts, your feelings.

Both for the best interests of the other party. 

I wished I knew clearly when to give and take. For now, it's a gamble.

Sometimes i feel so conflicted.

Are we looking at too much details that we fail to see the bigger picture?
What actually really matters - the heart.

Also it sucks to downplay &not be yourself

Kranji heritage trail

Yesterday was a very fun day and i want to blog about the places we went and the things we did but i'm so tired and lazy right now haha.

so here's a picture to summarise that day.

Bollywood Veggies

We went to experience kampong

We wore blue

We wore caps

We walked in the rain

We played in the rain

We played fungo

We laughed

We ate at Bistro

We pet doggies

We walked and walked and walked

We saw huge fishes

We also celebrated Carlisle's bday :)

Give thanks

I'm really thankful for people who understand me;

I'm really thankful that I have friends that stay so near me. Just a text and I can pop over their house. I'm thankful that I'm able to share everything and just pour out my annoyance. Honestly don't know what I'd do without them. I may not be the best person in times of great annoyance and I need space and time to dissipate the emotions.

I'm thankful for those who tries to cheer me up and calm me down. A smiley face is better than none.

I'm thankful to God that He places these people in my life so that I have the balance. I'm thankful because I'm not the person who likes to readily share deep stuff to people. I'm thankful that there are people that I can connect to that I'm so comfortable with. I'm thankful that they can tolerate my nonsense.

I'm not the best with words or gifts. But I really do appreciate y'all.

친구들,사랑해 : )

hmmm

Watched Left Behind today...
I now feel depressed.

Also feel so tired and sleepy

don't know why I've been feeling so sleepy and tired for the past week.. :(
body can't even go past 12am


Also i feel like sometimes i don't understand myself.

Also apocalyptic movies make me sad.
and feel like 'why am i on earth' & 'why are people so evil'