i'm so afraid that memory would fail me, that one day, i would forget the little details about you.




and thus no matter how pain it is, i make it a point to think back how a normal day at home would be with you.








life ain't the same without you.
i need so much distraction now.

i honestly think that i've screwed up so many people's lives.

One Direction-Moments

Falling in love with this song. it just speaks so much.

Shut the doorTurn the light offIf I wanna be with youI wanna feel your loveI wanna lay beside youI cannot hide thisEven though I tryHeartbeats harderTime escapes meTrembling hands touch skinIt makes this harderAnd the tears stream down my faceIf we could only have this life for one more dayIf we could only turn back timeYou know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to beMy love, my heart is breathing for thisMoment, in timeI'll find the words to sayBefore you leave me todayClose the doorThrow the keyDon't wanna be remindedDon't wanna be seenDon't wanna be without youMy judgement's cloudedLike tonight's skyHands are silentVoice is numbTry to scream out, my lungs
 It makes this harderAnd the tears stream down my face.If we could only have this life for one more dayIf we could only turn back timeYou know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to beMy love, my heart is breathing for thisMoment, in timeI'll find the words to sayBefore you leave me todayFlashing lights in my mindGoing back to the timePlaying games in the streetKicking balls at my feetThere's a numb in my toesStanding close to the edgeThere's a pile of my clothesAt the end of your bedAs I feel myself fallMake a joke of it allYou know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to beMy love, my heart is breathing for thisMoment, in timeI'll find the words to sayBefore you leave me todayYou know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to beMy love, my heart is breathing for thisMoment, in timeI'll find the words to sayBefore you leave me today 

eargasm.

Zayn:

Flashing lights in my mindGoing back to the timePlaying games in the streetKicking balls at my feetThere's a numb in my toesStanding close to the edgeThere's a pile of my clothesAt the end of your bedAs I feel myself fallMake a joke of it all






Moments-One Directioni simply love this song. so so so much.

You know I'll be your life, your voice, your reason to beMy love, my heart is breathing for thisMoment, in timeI'll find the words to sayBefore you leave me today.

people have to understand that getting over this is not easy at all.

it's quite impossible.
the brain can't exactly comprehend what's happened.
i don't even know myself.
it's just confusing.



i'm trying.
but please don't say anything.
i don't wanna force myself to do get over it just because of expectations.



improvement: it's okay when i don't stay up late and give myself free time to let my mind wander off. but currently i have a habit of sleeping quite late. or early hours of the morning you can say. so um at least i cry only a little bit. and then i feel that pain &ache in my heart that words can't describe it's as if it's real. other than that i stop thinking then distract myself and go and sleep and get on with life.

Is this goodbye?

Highly possible i'm abandoning this blog!

Well, not totally.
Tumblr is way too much fun.
AND a picture speaks a thousand words!!!


Will be blogging here to pen down interesting things.
E.g. my would-be trip to Club Med bintan. heard great reviews about this.


random interesting things recently:
-finally went for USS interview today.
-mabel finally contacted me after like so long!
-this week i started exercising. the last time i did was prolly half a year ago.
-i think i wanna get braces. always had a thing for them cause they were shiny and pretty.
-one direction is so cute.
-we planned 4days of our trip to taiwan.
-baked. again.
-have driving lessons tmr morning so goodbye.
and goodnight!

I am in love!!!

YES YES YES!!!
IT'S OFFICIAL!

I...
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AM.
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IN
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LOVE!!!!




WITH TUMBLR!!!!



okay yes i know i'm so slow.
tumblr has been around for like half a billion years and i finally discovered it after walking out of my cave last week.

IT'S. SO. AWESOME.
and it's gonna be my little secret! ;)


I can sit infront of the computer, and look at tumblr posts.
all. day. long.

I've even stopped playing maple.
at all.
LOLOLOLOL!



awsum tumblr is awsummmm.

On Replay.

The Cab- Angel With A Shotgun.












I'm an angel with a shotgun,
fighting til' the wars won,
I don't care if heaven won't take me back.
I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.
Don't you know you're everything I have?

Seriously?

I swear whenever people/things annoy me, it always happens ALL AT ONCE.

seriously wth man.
i'm so lucky sia.




If it's people i get more annoyed.
Really?
Do you not know that your nagging is annoying?
Do you not know your sarcasm is annoying?
etc.

these things are so obvious right!




is this what they meant by

low eq?

shiba inu puppies

"omnom paper."



hey gimme five!




"dude seriously, told you not to do it."





"Leggo of me! i'm a polar bear!"




"OMG what's thisssss? i looooove it."





Side track: saw this while googling on some uhh pet forum.


Pets are good for kids. I think it teaches them compassion and responsibility. I think people who refuse to allow their kids any pets are doing a huge disfavor to the kids. 

I don't agree with breeding though. Especially of dogs and cats. There are already too many in shelters who need homes. 




Or maybe a Malamute would be awesome!



Giant malamute!!! (got this off google images.)
it's huge!!!



I really hope heaven has doggies :3 i think it does.

Back from genting.

Can i haz one please? :(

  
pretty please with puppy eyes on top?





anyway, genting 3d2n had been awesome!


sad thing was, genting sucks so much during non-holiday period.
thrill rides mostly not opened.
weather was bad on the second day.

Ate and ate and ate though.
Feel fat now. hahahahaa.

but it was good.