Selective hearing

Earlier today, sitting in my dad's car while he lombang-ed me home... My mum called and I decided to "Waazzzaaap!" her, only to have my dad questioning in the background "huh what? Why you ask me to watch out? *starts nagging about how it's dangerous blabla*

#selectivehearing!!!

After reaching home and parking the car...at this particular ew parking lot.

I start telling him about how this lot is not good because of how spiders always crawl on to the car. 

*starts telling him about that time when there was a spider when I opened the door & promptly shut it, getting in only from the other side*

Dad: "is the spider the brown one; around this size?"

Me: "yayayayaaaa so disgusting!!!" *goes on about the grossness of that spider*

Dad: IGNORES ME & starts telling me about how when he was young they catch that spider to have spider fights...

#selectivehearing!!!

Anyway, mobile blogging at 6:16am because I just came back from a fruitful overnight study sesh :) I'm so tired now though; eyes can't help but close upon themselves. 

Oh btw I'm actually tuitioning this kid science.. &I have yet to tell my parents about it haha.. I figured they may nag about how I should be studying but instead I chose this period to take up stuff like this.. So yeah. 

And this korean 알바 girl at One Thing 카페 told me something funny today! She said I'm 예뻐요 & "너 내 스타일야." 

How can it beeeeeeee..........

“People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

Maya Angelou

hmmm

hmmmmmmmm,

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hmmmm...

“…just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.” (1 Peter. 1:16)


Something interesting on a Saturday morning...

http://phyliciadelta.com/why-we-should-stop-asking-how-far-is-too-far/

Songs bring about memories. very much for me. this goes the same for scents!

The very strong memory accompanied by listening to Skyway Avenue by We The Kings(and also the reason why i eventually stopped listening to that song).

I think it happened when I was in Secondary school. Noobie goodie 2 shoes sec 4 siwei walks up the spiral staircase in BBSS. she had been liking this new song she discovered through her brother playing songs on his laptop. having learnt the lyrics of the chorus, she was singing it to Cindy her ddp, while climbing up the stairs.

"Cause if you jump I will jump too
We will fall together from the building's ledge
Never looking back at what we've done we'll say it was love
Cause I will fall for you on skyway avenue"

Halfway through the chorus, halfway through those steps...HER EYECANDY AND FRIEND walked down. needless to say, she was very embarrassed and took quite awhile before she got over the trauma of singing songs loudly in public.

Actually thinking back, my eyecandy also not very cute haha. nobody in bbss was like cute/good looking unless you're talking about sec 1s qtpies. ahhhh XIANG DANG NIAN. i was so innocent and i didn't know about a looooot of things.

i don't know but at that moment there was something

something i've yet to understand or be able to explain

몰라

요즘 많이생각있어요.니가왜나한테이렇게.얘가왜많이스털킹했어요.동생가왜얘기싫은데.제가다액션는진심이예요?
사랑진짜쉬어아닌데요.마음이도몰라요.이해업슴.

아아아아ㅏㅇ많이일있는 때 진짜 자쯩나.

여행 기다려중.여행 필여해.


오늘아주귀여웠어..ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

몰라몰라몰라
시크렛 브럭 가자!!
안녕.
내년 한국에 간다
신난다
제가 보고싶을거예요?

“Kindness doesn’t mean that we don’t express our anger,” Julie Gottman explained, “but the kindness informs how we choose to express the anger. You can throw spears at your partner. Or you can explain why you’re hurt and angry, and that’s the kinder path.”

John Gottman elaborated on those spears: “Disasters will say things differently in a fight. Disasters will say ‘You’re late. What’s wrong with you? You’re just like your mom.’ Masters will say ‘I feel bad for picking on you about your lateness, and I know it’s not your fault, but it’s really annoying that you’re late again.’”

Cool article!
Will re-read and put more thoughts on it when i have the time.

http://www.businessinsider.com/lasting-relationships-rely-on-2-traits-2014-11

When darkness turns to light

Guess what i found when i got home today!!! 

THIS.

So i was digging through ning's drawers, trying to find the guitar strap but then i found this instead. i seriously thought the army people took this away. you have no idea how so very happy i am to have this. you see he didn't really leave a lot for us behind. my brother was a minimalist(basically just stingy with his money); so he didn't keep a lot nor did he wear much accessories. 

You know he was stingy but i'll always remember this time in 2011 when we celebrated my mum's birthday. i bought the stuffs(as always) and we decided to split the cake+present money amongst the 3 of us. when i was about to collect the $10+ from him, he gave me $50 and asked me to keep the change. maaaan that was the first time i thought 'hey army really changed my brother!' 

You know i was always proud of my brother. i don't know if he knew that but he was the smartest person to me. always. from the times when he scored so well in PSLE such that he entered RVHS til when he represented his school to go to some science competition that got aired on TV. (which led to us family making fun of him doing the 'river valley!' pose) he was so talented. he played the piano, attained grade 8 and is in his school's choir. never sings out of tune, also used to help me tune the guitar by ear. one of the proudest moments was when i was there during his POP. that surge of pride when they threw their caps, thinking "my brother's in there!!!".

But then i regret being busy in JC/playing too much post A levels and not being able to be there for his other milestones. i didn't even know he was a sergeant and i wasn't there when he became one. he's a combat engineer - that i know - i heard they go through some tough shit. so whenever someone talked army i tell them my bro's a combat engineer(boasting like the only talent i have is my brother). i should've been there. that's why for the first few times i was invited to be there for other people's POP i made excuses to not be there. it reminds me of my brother also, i want that POP experience to be special. "i only went for my bro's one, no one elses'". this also applies to all the comms ball and that kind of invitation. that explains why i rejected 5 people even though i was pretty inclined to almost say yes at the end... people have no idea how much ARMY stuff just reminds me of my brother... well it got better because basically i was suddenly surrounded by a whole group of new NSFs, i sort of got used to all these army talks.

Today i went to sing karaoke with a few peeps. it was fun :) i also wished i asked you to teach me how to sing. well, i did but i wished i was persistent with it so that you would've gotten down to really teaching me. you know, i miss your singing. (even though you won't stop singing The Cab...) i also miss your piano seshes. i can't believe i can't remember that exam piece that you kept playing. i used to sometimes find it so annoying to get woken up by you playing the piano on weekends.(ning prolly doesn't cause he sleeps like a log) i can't help if i'm not a morning person and love sleeping in... but now i wished you were a bit more of a tech savy guy who videoed yourself playing the piano and posted them somewhere. 

You know sometimes i sit in the dining room and think what if you just came home like usual, like nothing happened at all. 

Yes i am currently re-evaluating every single thing in my life.

three-quarter school life crisis

Today is

One of the days when I look back and really miss Secondary school life/College life. I realise that there is this hollow in my heart because what was there is now gone.

There are certain friendships that i wished would last. There are certain friendships that i wished i had tried harder.

You see i'm someone that is really bad at this whole "meeting up with friends" thing. Almost always i have been asked out by people. I used to not even try to start up conversations to ask about my friends but i have been trying since then.

So i'm sorry i hadn't tried hard enough. i'm sorry i allowed this to slip. i'm sorry i'm not there for you right now, i'm sorry that i couldn't keep my promise.

i wish i could.