It's probably time to grow up.

But it's sometimes so hard. I do wonder what drama is coming up next.

Does everyone experience such things? Or am I one of the few?

I am in no position to ask if this is fair or not. But I can't help but think I might have to go through more.

Now I know why Peter Pan didn't want to grow up.

Why You're Single

By Amanda Crude. From Thought Catalog.

"You’re single because you’re single. It’s not because you texted too much or too little or waited 33 minutes to respond because he took 23. It’s not because you met up with your ex that night at 5 a.m. that no one knows about, or because you kissed another boy after a date with a loser.

You’re not single because you spit food on that date or tripped coming out the the movie theatre. You’re not single because you hurt your first boyfriend really badly when you were 15 or because you have yet, to this day, to apologize. It’s not because you were secretly jealous when your friend got a boyfriend or that a guy you dated for two months now has a really cute girlfriend and looks really happy. And you’re happy for him. But still ill that he found someone before you.

You’re not single because you slept with your ex boyfriend. You’re not single because half the world found out when you didn’t even want to remember it yourself. You’re not single because you think the guy your friend wants to hook you up with is ugly or not tall enough. It’s not because you’re not willing to put up with someone who doesn’t brush their teeth on a regular basis.

You’re not single because your standards are too high. Good for you for having standards. It’s not because you didn’t like that really, really good guy who wanted to take you on a date and you just weren’t feeling it. And it’s not because you like to wear pajama pants as soon as you get home and wash all the makeup off your face. You’re not single because you didn’t learn enough from the past or would rather chill on a Friday night with your blanket and a cold beer than shower, get ready, and go out. You’re not single because something is wrong with you.

You are single because you are single. It’s really as simple as that. You haven’t made the connection with another heart yet. You can get dolled up, dress cute, cut your hair, dye your hair, tweeze your eyebrows, put on lipstick and you may still. be. single. You can go out to a bar hoping to meet the love of your life and not find a damn one in the place attractive. And it’s going to remain that way until it’s time for you to find one. Stop hoping for it. Start living the life that you do have instead of wishing for things that you don’t have. There will come a time you’ll meet a boy and you’ll have to give up some of this single freedom you currently have. Start being more thankful. Start doing that now."

The next time some one asks me why I'm still single I'm gonna reply "I haven't made the connection with another heart yet or it happened and it wasn't meant to be. I've got another 5years."

My K day

The TV was on this korean channel(i've no idea what..) and they were showing a reality TV show. Basically, people who have issues with another party asks to be on the show so that their issue can be resolved. There will also be votes from the audience to say whether the issue is of a concern.

So this wifey came and told of her story. Her husband clubs every weekend until 4am, chats with random girls on and online chatting app, dresses nicely and puts on BB cream(does the whole take-care-of-face routine) to attract girls' attention and even taught his two sons(YES TWO SONS) to call him uncle when he brings them out. All of which only started after his marriage with wifey.

LIKE WHAT IN THE WORLD.
SIR, THIS IS NOT OKAY AT ALL.

It's quite upsetting that there are such immature guys out there who are SO insensitive! They are married for goodness sake. You know what's the worst thing? He was totally fine with what he was doing and thought it wasn't cheating. Because, i quote, "Cheating is only when there is skinship". Has he not heard of emotional cheating before...? Does he not know what he puts his wife through by behaving in this manner?

sigh

It's quite scary to think there are guys out there who would think this way. Why would they even want to marry in the first place then.

And the worst thing was after that the wifey couldn't control her emotions and was tearing and stuff. All this while she confessed that she was worried and couldn't sleep properly, always waking up every hour to see if her husband is back home. Also, she never tells the husband but sometimes she cries about it.

Lesson of the day: If you can't keep your promise to try your best to not make your significant other cry/ be hurt. Don't. Just don't even. 

(yeah yeah, what do i know right...don't judge leh)

i laughed

I HAVE A CONFESSION.
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I HAVE SHORT ATTENTION SPAN AND CAN'T STUDY FOR MY BGS OMG GG BUT I DON'T LIKE BGS.


anyway i discovered something amazing this afternoon that gave me a good laugh.
MY PAST FB NOTES.
oh my god.






I was SO bhb.
And retarded HAHAHA.(and out of curiosity i checked my 09 blog posts... dahell i didn't understand what the 15yo me was writing. so incoherent and filled with ?? inner brain thoughts. read only my DEC posts cause ain't got enough time)

I found out a few things of the past about me:
1. Somehow my last message and call was always to chia yao de.... (you call me for what sia! what did we talk about??? xinping? trololol)
2. I used to call someone dearrrrr (LOL)
3. Someone was obsessed with my brown eyes. (hell yeah)
4. I used to write those notes thingy/30 things about me/answer these truthfully ALL the time cause i was bored. (but now there is youtube and function and tumblr..)
5. Sec 3/4 life was one of my fav everrrr.

Shall continue to dig up my past (and share it to jolyn and the WA group of how much a joke i was) after my last paper tomorrow.

Exams

First paper down. 2 more to go.
3 more days to party time.

#LEGGO.

that kind of hurt or sudden pain that can incapacitate you

stop you from doing what you're doing at the moment
forget what you were saying or thinking


and it takes so much to concentrate.

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurst when you disapprove all doing
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
'Cuz you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

thought of the day

"When you’re vulnerable, your heart is wide open, you put your trust in somebody in the form of giving them the most precious thing you have – your heart.  When you’re vulnerable you leave yourself available to be hurt and people hurt people. So I guess somewhere along the way, whether I realized it or not, I made the decision that vulnerability was not for me. I told myself that to be vulnerable would mean to give up my strength and I did not want to give it up. My construction of strength almost defined me." - By KOVIE BIAKOLO

April fooling 4

Basically I didn't manage to record in photo or video but.... outlive 1 fooled kaixin!!!!


We were having dinner/supper at beauty world macs (as usual on a Monday night).

And weiyan was teaching tang how to create Skype.
And we saw kaixin online so we video Skyped her!

Ended up talking about how much she wants to come back and which airlines sell the cheapest tickets back.

So she checked Tiger and Scoot...
And then I told her.. "You try Lion Airways"

Then she fell for it she was like oh okay.

Weiyan then said "uhh I think quite cheap, you go check www.lionairways.com"

So she tried searching. And she seems to have somewhat found it, to our amazement and Sherry's controlled laughter.
But turned out was just some weird website so we told her to google it.

She went to some page that I think has all the airlines and she could choose what she wants. Then she was like "don't have leh"

Me, " why not you try to google zebra airlines la "


Her " huuuuh??? Eh y'all bluff me! "

Ahahahha hahahahah.
Kaixin ah kaixin. How to graduate.

April fooling 3

This one super obvious.
I wasn't gonna try too hard cause....
My mum dad aunt are pretty much like people who likes to worry for a living.

Any small thing can trigger the worry bug in them :O

So anyway, I tried my luck.
( I actually wanted to put it as "I've enough of all the stress I don't need all these shit. I'm withdrawing." )

AND one person fell for it.
姑姑....hahahahahha. I think if my mum/dad was checking fb at that time they would've fell for it too!
Aiya wasted.

April fooling 2

So sherry being sherry fell for this.... SHERRY AH
I THOUGHT YOU WOULDN'T..

Or maybe I'm just too good at this :)

April fooling 1

So this was actually somewhat kind of on April 2nd but I don't care it worked.

Ning believed it. (I think cause I tweeted "where can I buy one of these flop ear bunnies from") aha newb.

Actually took off the photo from xiaxue and her bunny and cropped it up.

The next morning my mum asked me
"Last time you say your friend wanna give you hamster, now say your friend wanna give you bunny. Why so many?"
In a very neutral tone(but I think she secretly wished I really brought home the bunny it's damn cute pls!!!)

Then lazily, in bed, I told her....
HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!
While grinning hahahha.

She broke out into a sheepish smile also hahahahah.

The stupidest thing you can do is to intentionally hurt someone.