Confused.

Confucius say......








girl like to meet boy at park, but boy like to park meet at girl.


one of the Confucius jokes i'l never forget heh.










Anyway!

Happy belated birthday Jacelyn!
(27th Jan)

didn't blog on that date :/

Love,
HHGM.

CNY 2012

The world has yet to end, no surprise here.
And we get to celebrate CNY 2012~
.. in pictures.

CNY eve at cousin's house....dinner!



cny day 1 at 3rd uncle's house for lunch!





Whole Hoe family!






me & caroline jie.




cny day 1 steamboat dinner at my house!
(notice my sloppy dressing cause it's at MY house? hehe.)




celebrated my dad's bday!
even though it was supposed to be the next day.
A 1964 year old wine!
You don't wanna know how much it costs.....



Gonna spend the next 3 days in msia!
Am really sick since last night.
Like body aching like mad head hurts, throat hurts, body weak as hell.
Fever but i don't feel hot to myself cause my hands hot too...


BUT still gonna  go msia cause i desperately need that extra angpao money if i ever wanna see myself travel overseas on mission trip/with friends.


bleurgh, forsee myself losing 1kg or so because of my extreme little amount of food intake since this morning.

China? Is that you?

This is a tumblr-ish emo anyhow blog post.

And above is a tumblrish emo picture taken by Vanessa and her instagram.

The place looked like China.

really.

pre-CNY

Ah, pre-cny.
.
.
.
I HATE YOU.


Yes, it is the time of the year to DAO SAO CHU.
To clean every nook and cranny of your house.
From the inside to the outside to the on top and the bottom.

And since i'm the only one at home during cleaning hours, (yay yippee)
i'm the only one who can help with my mum!
yay, yippee.

Okay, it's not that bad la. I actually get to (somehow) exercise.
And get a "Wah so fast ah" from my mum because of my speediness. (quality compromised though...)



But when it comes to my room.......
:O
:O
:O
The horror.
(i have my own room so i need to clean up the whole of the room)

Which includes cupboards and drawers which most of it do not contain my clothes/stuffs.

Le sigh.

Cleaning up dirties my hands and makes it rough rough and yucky for like the day so i don't like. hahahha.
but when i start it's like...
GB mode on.
that is if there's no phone/laptop to distract me :3

heh.

Yes, it's 1.34pm on a SG-ish afternoon and i have yet to bathe!
whopedeedoo.

I think...

I think if i weren't a christian and never met God or encountered him i would probably.....


-be one of the meanest girls around my friends (in terms of judging/giving comments/hate words)
when i start argueing at rage mode....hmm.. it's like i become an intellectual chao ah lian HAHAHAAA.

-have a tattoo :O
ikr..............

-actually get into bitch fights...

-actually be childish enough to do the whole "high school lameass back stabbing, hating, bullying" shit.
to those that i hate anyway...

-damn vulgar ohmygoodness the horror right?

-have serious anger management issues

-be doing various night activities

and etc. my brain not working can't think of more.



But now that i know that the above is SO wrong........
i have to fight the above mentioned urges every. single. day. without. giving. in.

Being a christian is hard but it's rewarding.
for one, you get to live forever and ever after you die.
and sometimes you're more mature than the same aged people around you.
then cool things start happening and you suddenly feel very blessed.
but then people start being jealous and hate on you being holy moly.
and then you'll need to go through tough times where people hate you because you're a christian or your parents don't allow you to be one.
or maybe you'll go through temptations and then you see other people like having fun then you also wanna have fun.
but these obstacles makes us into a stronger person, helps us grow up.
There'll be ups and there'll be downs.
How will you react to it? Will you keep the faith and trust in God or will you only trust in Him if things are going your way?
Will you talk to God everyday or only when you got that feeling then you talk.



Yeah, sometimes we slip once in a while.
doing things we regret.
Others decides that it's too tough and just stop.

But whatever.
The point is....................
.
.
i need to sleep.


Um no, is that.....the above blog post is irrelevant because no matter what we do to convince some people to stop hating on us they will hate on us as said in the bible.

So goodluckhavefun and hope you encounter God and his i-also-dk-how-to-describe-supercoolamazing LOVE.

hot and cold, yes and no.

I've come to a conclusion that social networking platforms causes major miscom and misunderstnadings.

Facebook
Twitter
Blogger
Tumblr
etc...

You name it.

As long as the content is able to speak into Reader's life/situation, it is only human for Reader or mostly Females to read too much into the content and ask......
.
.
.
Is it ME?!?!?!



C'mon admit it.

That is why i'm training myself to not to read too much into people's words.
And maybe avoiding misleading content by just skimming through?

Yeah, and that's cause i experienced it before and no thanks idw it to happen again.
I posted some judging content(yes yes, i has repentedzxzx) cause i was pissed off at my brother and this friend of mine thought i was talking about him and wowwww awkwardd!!!!!

After that i think he just thought i was lying but oh well.
SEE WHAT SOCIAL MEDIA DOES.
IT IS SECRETLY EVILLLLLLLL. (just like me! hahhaaahha kidding i'm not :( )


SIGH.




On a happier note....
GB RECRUITMENT IS SUCCESS!!!!
At least to me.
I've learnt one thing.
Numbers are not everything. Building a r/s with the girls then and there, chattingg with them and making them feel at home.......
SUCH AN AWESOME FEELING :')
I'm not an usher so the only two girls are really got to know is Nina and Farhannah!
They are soooooooo cute!
And there was this other girl at the crafts table and she so cute and chubby too!!!
hhahaaha.

AND regional meeting today was (Y)!!!
Got to align vision and focus.
AND I'M REALLY EXCITED FOR OUR NEXT EVENT!!!
Last Christmas preparations and stuff was like so fun, serving God and knowing his people and making friends! wow.


haha, okay.
FOCUS.

Now, it's CNY and bai nian stuffs!

Also, I finally have(gonna have) a job!!!
And i asked God and omgosh, flexible, plus pay quite good!

NICE ONE LA GOD.

Reminiscence.

Morning world!



It's 3.25am and i wanted to sleep earlier but i ended up reading my archives and man did i sound SERIOUSLY RETARDED HAHAHHAHAA.


I should take time to read ALL of them.
Just to remind myself of what i went through and how i became who i am today :)

Still can't get over the fact that i was SO friendly to Daryl and we actually talked on msn in the past!!!!
HAHAHA, i seriously didn't remember omg so funny!!
DAO YAN AH.


God, i was so silly and innocent last time!
like really innocent and suaku-ish.
Nowonder Sara called me suaku.


Those memories are good and i really wanna dig out some truths behind some of those stuffs.
Like hear story like that.
Like some hidden story that's part of my life but i didn't get to know.
(yes, i like hearing life stories and such.)



Good times.




<3

ps. this picture above was titled as: HEHE, in my nov 08 post.
i sound so pervy whattheshit hahahahha.

An update

Uhhh i did say i wanted to post some things but i forgot what they were..


Oh well!
Shall do it next time.
Plus i did journal down what happened this time that i went Penang to eat, sleep, shit.
So no problemo.


Have been so mao dun lately.
I really really wanna find a job and work so i can earn $$.
BUT, i have commitments and i thus i can't find a work that's really flexible.
(I'm only available on mondays, tuesdays and thursdays. pathetic right?)

That's til march.
After march I'll have wednesdays too!
BUT MISSION TRIP IS IN MARCH AND I WANNA GO MISSION TRIP AND AND I NEED THE MONEY T_T



sigh.
and i've got this thing bugging in me since um some time.
you know how sometimes something that you care a lot can scar you so much that you are too afraid to let the same thing to happen again?
you just seem to have this emotional/psychological/idkwhat barrier.
and i'm sick of being this way.
but i can't bring myself to do anything in the situation-and believe me i tried so much in the past.

i see stuff happens and i can't step in.
no, it's like, you made sure that i couldn't step in anymore.


i'm secretly a depressed sad girl at 3.30am in the morning.


I know an apt name for this post.
It hurts.