An update

Uhhh i did say i wanted to post some things but i forgot what they were..


Oh well!
Shall do it next time.
Plus i did journal down what happened this time that i went Penang to eat, sleep, shit.
So no problemo.


Have been so mao dun lately.
I really really wanna find a job and work so i can earn $$.
BUT, i have commitments and i thus i can't find a work that's really flexible.
(I'm only available on mondays, tuesdays and thursdays. pathetic right?)

That's til march.
After march I'll have wednesdays too!
BUT MISSION TRIP IS IN MARCH AND I WANNA GO MISSION TRIP AND AND I NEED THE MONEY T_T



sigh.
and i've got this thing bugging in me since um some time.
you know how sometimes something that you care a lot can scar you so much that you are too afraid to let the same thing to happen again?
you just seem to have this emotional/psychological/idkwhat barrier.
and i'm sick of being this way.
but i can't bring myself to do anything in the situation-and believe me i tried so much in the past.

i see stuff happens and i can't step in.
no, it's like, you made sure that i couldn't step in anymore.


i'm secretly a depressed sad girl at 3.30am in the morning.


I know an apt name for this post.
It hurts.