You know how people always have a dream?
Like that one dream they really want to see it happen ever since they were young?
Mine used to be "Be a Zookeeper"(so i can take care of animals).
But then along the way i realised being a Zoo Keeper wasn't "good enough". So it changed to being a Vet. However, i wasn't that smart to be a doctor of any sorts. So now, it's just pet shop owner.
I want to have a dog, cat, rabbit, hamster.
I never understood why my parents would object to that. (they never give a good enough reason to explain either)
When i was young, i thought
"It's okay, they say i can't take care of it now, but when i'm older, I'll be able to."
Well, you know how adults are. Making all sorts of excuses and lying to kids. Cheating their feelings.
Previously it was "We're looking at bigger house, you can get one then."
Now, it's "No our house is small."
They're not even looking for a bigger house anymore. Why bother giving false hopes in the first place, then?
"You won't take care of it." "It's dirty"
This is how i see it.
Some people likes Chanel, some people likes cars, some likes shades and some likes guitars.
They receive something they like, they get real happy.
Different people, different interests.
I don't see how a 1.2k e guitar is very different from a dog.
1. They both make noise.
2. They make the owner happy.
3. They need to be taken care of.
4. You better spend time with it.
5. You need a space to place it.
6. They are expensive.
7. They really make you happy.
Okay, so maybe a dog is slightly different but they have their similarities!
If my kid wanted a chocolate bar a day because it made him happy i would've said no. because chocolates on the other hand, are actually unhealthy to my kid.
If my kid wanted a toy drum set, why not?
You know what makes me happy?
Good food, food that i like, my mum's cooking.
Finding penang food to eat and eating eat w my family.
Shopping for things/clothes and coming home NOT getting nagged at. (i DO NOT shop excessively okay. i don't even buy branded stuff like wt )
Travelling, being places that has a story to tell. Breath taking scenery.
Catching up with friends..
Fridays and Saturdays. GB, LG, church.
Green stuff.
Star gazing. The moon.
Rainbows.
Mc Donald's ice cream on a hot day.
Hugs.
Am i not simple enough?
At one point of time i thought y'all understood why i liked GB. And why i was going back to serve.
But no, i guess not.
It's a joy to serve.
It's some sort of direction.
I influence lives, i make an impact, i help.
I'm sorry you can't see that as something good, but I like it, so let me be.
Why do I still go back? "No need study one ah?"
I do and i will. But i'm someone who sees people so much more important than a piece of paper.
If anyone of you begs to differ, well, good luck to you and have fun with your life.
If you see me as someone who can't take care of myself, can't take care of my own things (just because of one or a few instances) and therefore can't help people, i can only say so be it.
You may think what you like of me, but i will not back down because i know who i am to Him.
My attitude may suck sometimes, but it doesn't mean it sucks all the time.
Just because i forgot about my charger does not mean i actually like it/ am okay that i lost it.
zzz wasted so much time typing this out.
blah. at least i feel better now.
"Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try"
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