maybe it's time to stop thinking that i need to be fixed.
maybe it's time to stop thinking that this is brokenness.
maybe it's just a cut, a deep wound to a part of me that will never be the same again.
maybe it's time to come to terms with this fact, the wound will leave a scar.
maybe it's time to stop being so conflicted and embrace the fact that i don't want the scar to ever heal or fade away. it's not like i can change what has happened; turn back time and stop the knife from plunging in.

i don't know what to make of these 3 years. it seems like it's forever yet again it seems like it was just yesterday. it still hurts. i don't want to forget but every time i try to remember, i'm overwhelmed.

conflicted.

the world moves on but we will never move on.
i move on but you will never move on.

i don't even remember when's the last time i told you this personally but i just wanna say it again.
i love you, i miss you.