people have to understand that getting over this is not easy at all.

it's quite impossible.
the brain can't exactly comprehend what's happened.
i don't even know myself.
it's just confusing.



i'm trying.
but please don't say anything.
i don't wanna force myself to do get over it just because of expectations.



improvement: it's okay when i don't stay up late and give myself free time to let my mind wander off. but currently i have a habit of sleeping quite late. or early hours of the morning you can say. so um at least i cry only a little bit. and then i feel that pain &ache in my heart that words can't describe it's as if it's real. other than that i stop thinking then distract myself and go and sleep and get on with life.